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Lost days, pictures fade.
Tell me about pretendance.
Thursday, January 28, 2010

A day out on learning journey to the zoo.
It was awesomely fun with my two darlings,
Esp jingwen who went screaming over cute animals she see.
Thanks for everything today, you girls totally made me feel so much better after so many days of many things.
and i felt really lucky to have had you girls.

Took lots of photos, it'll be up on facebook soon.
A long time ever since a picture with andrew and samuel, today we finally took one.
We've got more to come guys.

The shows at the amphitheatre was awesome, i guess i really learnt something?
That's to save animals!





So much of this that, so much of tears and breaking down.
It's enough.
Being brought down by it a few days, but how can i afford to break down infront of everyone.
Birthdays today, yesterday, and learning journey.
Happy things and unhappy ones, come at the same time.
How to balance, how to express my feelings.
Guess it's not possible.
I wna go see her the last time @ the wake, but im not allowed to.
I can only see her tmr and sat and sunday.
I wna see her the last time, and the last and only time.
So many things on hand to do and complete, and so many to lead.
So many to talk to, before a match, during debrief.
It takes how much and how long for me endure throughout with a whole lot of things in my mind. it's crazily taxing.
I may be happy, laughing, smiling, but that's the least i could do to show that im alright.
So none will be affected.
I've gotta live as per normal.
talk as per usual, and do every single thing as per usual.
As i speak to you, as i laugh, as i smile.
It takes how much effort and courage to do it.
I'm emotional, and im really bad at holding in my feelings
I hope pretendance will bring me thru.
I'll be strong, and i'll live it normally.